Got diagnosed today im actually devastated
Rambling because I’m scared
Got my psychological assessment reports today Im diagnosed with ADHD and BPD
This is Lowkey devastating as a young adult especially since I thought I was doing okay for myself I’m scared how I’m gonna be perceived from now on by professionals and other people due to bad stigma and stereotypes ik how they look at people like this it’s terrible :( but at the same time everything is starting to make sense now when I’m looking back, I’m actually really scared they want to put me on meds tho Idk if I can handle that I’m a recovering addict
I didn’t realise how long and taxing the process was and fucking expensive too I originally went in for only for an adhd evaluation for school reasons but psychologist thought I had bipolar or ptsd and wanted to evaluate me longer due to my history then a bunch of other bad stuff happened and more evaluations had to happen idk it was a stupid long process this took months
my heath insurance is such garbage I paid for all these evaluations out of pocket not sure how I’m gonna pay for therapy sessions im seeing my parents tomorrow im making them brunch lol but im too scared to tell my mum the results I love my mum but shes gonna be so devastated and start crying i don’t want to know my dads reaction either I feel like I failed them again idk I’m just really scared and devastated rn :’)
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Offering a hug too, I'll soon be going thru this too, I struggle with adhd symptoms, but... it's tough our here w healthcare symptoms
just yolo it if you keep trying to understand youll drive yourself mad.
Just bc u were labeled that doesn’t mean it defines u as a person and it doesn’t need to rule ur life even if u fit some of the criteria u can still lead a happy and fulfilling life as long as u get the right help, and tbh maybe consider confiding in friends or other family if it feels too hard to tell ur parents
Also as long as ur parents aren’t conditional love kind of parents they will still love u and their opinion won’t change and they may understand the reasons behind ur actions better and want to help u tbh if u know u can be vulnerable with them just ask them to not see u any differently and how much that would affect u
...........(((((((((((((((CM3 2.0)))))))))))))) a BIG ol'virtual hug for you :)
This may feel like your self-perception is totally changing, but please remember that at the end of the day, you're still the person you were before diagnosis. Please don't be scared to tell your parents, let them know that at the end of the day this isn't about labels as much as it is about making sure you're doing good and if you're not then what can be done to help you. It's totally normal you feel scared bc change is always scary! No matter what, a diagnosis doesn't mean you failed anyone. Best of luck to you :)