GUYS AM I A WEIRDO!??
Okay, so I love reading dark and psychological yaoi with heavy themes like rape and torture. Not because I enjoy it, I really don’t , but because I like to make myself suffer emotionally. I love crying while reading, especially when the uke suffers a lot and cries a lot. I always find myself sympathizing with them, wanting to hug them, protect them, and just be there for them.
What I really crave is for them to have a happy moment later on, even if it’s with the person who hurt them , but only after heavy redemption. I know it sounds weird, and I want to be clear: I don’t support Stockholm Syndrome or romanticizing abuse. But there’s something about when the abuser truly breaks down, realizes what they’ve done, begs for forgiveness, changes, and starts genuinely yearning for the uke… I don’t know how to explain it. It makes my heart ache in a good way. I guess I just really want to see the victim find happiness and peace, even in the most twisted situations.
I know this might sound strange or even messed up. I’m self-aware of how weird I might be coming off. But I never enjoy the rape scenes , they make me cry. A lot. And I know it’s going to hurt, but that’s why I read them. It’s like I want to go through that emotional pain just to get to the healing part.
I know this is a heavy topic and probably very, very controversial. Y’all can hate me if you want, I get it. But I’d genuinely like to hear your thoughts.
No, personally I don’t think you’re a weirdo, because self-awareness is really important when it comes to reading dark or morally complicated stories. And you clearly understand your boundaries. You're not romanticizing or supporting the horrible things that happen,you’re using these stories to feel deeply, to cry, and to connect emotionally ......
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Omg you're a freak!!!! You committed a thought crime!!! Quick someone call the thought police, so we can put this weirdo in thought jail!!!
Hey everyone!!! this asshole masturbates to a different drawings of gay anime men fucking than I do!!!!
Anyway less sarcastically now, it literally doesn't matter if you're cranking it to killing stalking. ......
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seems like you just like chase arcs lol
edit: someone else in the comments suggested you like wife chasing crematorium plots, which i agree. it's not weird to like those plots--that's why it's so popular. imo the reason why it's so attractive to readers is because people like to fantasize about being wronged then having the person who wronged them......
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This isn’t really controversial at all, it’s actually something that was coined by Ancient Greeks that we now know as “catharsis”… or purging.
People would go watch tragedies through Greek theater in order to sympathize with the main characters and feel emotions alongside their journey. It gave the audience a chance to release any “ne......
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Hi! I’m the OP of this post , I honestly didn’t expect it to blow up like this. Thank you to everyone who shared their opinions,I truly appreciate it. I think some people may have misunderstood where I’m coming from, so I just want to clarify a few things.
First of all, I do not have a rape fetish. I don’t get turned on by rape, abuse, or ......
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you guys love making up these long winded excuses for why you like this stuff. you don't need anyone's approval lmao
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yeah man as long as you're an adult and have a healthy mindset about it then it really doesn't matter. anybody saying you're horrible or abnormal or need help is on tiktok too much and are not practiced psychologists. art and media is supposed to make you feel things--and especially in the case of more non-conventional or "obscene" content, allow y......
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Did you guys read this like fully at all?? they’re reading a pile of fetish content that romanticizes, rape and like seeing someone getting brutally raped and they get with their abuser and y’all think that shit is fucking normal?? Can you guys not for once normalize reading rape? It seems to be impossible for a lot of BL readers for some reaso......
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To everyone moral policing the OP, calling them names and harassing and threatening them, especially after they shared that they’re a survivor,you’re calling them a weirdo, but let’s be real: the biggest weirdos here are y’all. Not to mention Some of you literally read shota, support pedos, and have all kinds of problematic yaoi on your own......
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