GUYS AM I A WEIRDO!??
Okay, so I love reading dark and psychological yaoi with heavy themes like rape and torture. Not because I enjoy it, I really don’t , but because I like to make myself suffer emotionally. I love crying while reading, especially when the uke suffers a lot and cries a lot. I always find myself sympathizing with them, wanting to hug them, protect them, and just be there for them.
What I really crave is for them to have a happy moment later on, even if it’s with the person who hurt them , but only after heavy redemption. I know it sounds weird, and I want to be clear: I don’t support Stockholm Syndrome or romanticizing abuse. But there’s something about when the abuser truly breaks down, realizes what they’ve done, begs for forgiveness, changes, and starts genuinely yearning for the uke… I don’t know how to explain it. It makes my heart ache in a good way. I guess I just really want to see the victim find happiness and peace, even in the most twisted situations.
I know this might sound strange or even messed up. I’m self-aware of how weird I might be coming off. But I never enjoy the rape scenes , they make me cry. A lot. And I know it’s going to hurt, but that’s why I read them. It’s like I want to go through that emotional pain just to get to the healing part.
I know this is a heavy topic and probably very, very controversial. Y’all can hate me if you want, I get it. But I’d genuinely like to hear your thoughts.
Enjoy yourself! I have never read anything and thought to myself _ am i weird!?..
Girl we are all here for the same food.. Enjoy yourself.!
Unless you are under age.. don't fuck your head so early.. go have some realistic life experiences.
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For some reason, everyone uses this "murder vs rape in fiction" example.
I think there might be a point where murder is a bit of an alien concept for most people. Most of us have never killed anyone before and understand that murder is wrong, so we can completely detach from the act. Most of us haven't killed, and none of us have died, so there's ......
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Not all the other usual suspects uniting together here in the comments and coddling your weird-ass for being a special-grade creep instead of calling you out for what you really are - a gay fetishiser with a rape kink.
"I always find myself sympathizing with them, wanting to hug them, protect them, and just be there for them."; what a fucking joke......
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To me it seems like you just really like wife crematorium plots lol. I would suggest looking for Manhua because they reallllyyyy like that type of drama and plot.
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Yes you are weird as fuck. I'm genuinely baffled that people are trying to tell you otherwise?? Seek help cuz you're not a kind soul who wants "happiness" for the victim.
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Am I the only one a bit... Confused about this? I understand you said you enjoy making yourself cry, but why does it have to be with.. Rape? And torture? Just read regular angst manga, I don't see any reason why you have to read rape. You may think you're 'not enjoying' but by making yourself read the topic over and over again, that means you DO, n......
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why are some of u practically forcing the op to admit that they enjoy the rape scenes or whatever? aren't they a survivor themself? if they said they don't, then they don't. it's not our business to figure out if they're lying or not, esp since this is literally an anonymous website and I don't see any reason why they would lie about it when to me ......
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Dw, ur fine!! as long as you dont get turned on by it - yes. Tbh, people who get “off” by reading that type of stories are the weirdo…
I also feel like that whenever I read “dead dove do not eat”/psychological bls .
Craving for the redemption/chasing arc where I see the seme suffer the heavy burden of his wrongdoings. Its like craving fo......
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the important thing here is if you have clear boundaries between fantasy and reality in your mind, so long as real people aren't hurt and you're not influenced behaviorally irl you're fine :) if you ever get seriously worried about it please reach out to a professional or a person you trust
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You honestly give me the creeps. I've seen a lot of people on here talking about why they like yaoi torture porn, and this is the first time I genuinely felt creeped out. I think it’s because it comes across as not genuine and rather as somebody trying to justify what they know is viewed by most people as messed up. I've seen people say that they......
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