yuri irl and evil men

hi guys, while ago i said that being bitch less made it more fun to read yuri/yaoi - and I was right. recently I had sex with a woman for the first time and honestly great experience but also very weird bc it was kinda a threesome with her boyfriend, but now I don’t think I can ever read yuri again I’ll just get reminded of everything that happened - it’s a VERY vivid memory. also couple days later i meet the nicest guy ever whom I have an incredibly intense romance with, but he turns out to be not so nice, so every time I read anything romance now on here I get mad, like stop being happy when I haven’t had a partner in almost 3 years sigh, I hate dating, bring me back to just being bitchless loser reading yaoi/yuri again THANK YOU! does anyone relate chat