am I a bad person

My classes ended like in early August, but I she had this girl in my class right.

We sort of had to work together.

And she was a massive asshole, and when I say massive asshole, I mean:

1. She basically did a micrometer of work and called it 50%. I have proof of it. In a coding class, she had economics in her code. Not even commented, just flat out an annuity something on it.

2. Told me that it was my job to help her because we were classmates. I'm not kidding, by the end of our labs, in one of them, it got so bad that we were writing emails as correspondence and in one of them, she complained that “When I asked you questions about your code, you answered vaguely.”. When your question is so dumb that you are two labs behinds on content-I AM NOT IN CHARGE OF YOU. Not only that, I was already DOING EVERYTHING. I don't understand why not only do I need to do everything, I also needed to make her feel as though she was doing something, and I also needed to make sure to answer all her questions no matter how much time it took me, and I also needed to make sure that she was happy because I couldn't have a bad attitude, no, it was fine for her to snub me, to imply that I'm hysterical, to poke and prod at me like a dog, but god forbid I raised my voice by one decibel. And not only that, but it was MY job to make sure that we both got well off grades and that she didn't look like an idiot or else she would find some extremely convoluted way to blame me in the most “polite” way possible.

This person's definition of polite is being quiet and saying things in a passive aggressive manner to only ever express her own needs.

That's not polite. And I know because everyone irl complains that I talk like I'm from the Victorian era. I. Am. Polite.

When I want to be anyway. I'm not polite online honestly.

3. Consistently displayed... an extremely selfish demeanor where I had to both make sure she was happy while being the only one... concerned about our work. Like, she kept on arguing and arguing and dragging me out of my own time because of things like 'attitude' when she was the one who was always had a me-first attitude. Like to explain how selfish she was, she wanted me to take time out my life to talk about her problems with me. I went with her. And we talked and she said that she didn't like how I did everything (I also... let her... redo an entire section when she asked to... even though the lab was timed... and there was actually a lot of work to do... if she bothered to read ahead but no I... I was supposed to tell her... what to do while also... not telling her what to do or else it would be me being forceful or something I don't... I don't understand what she wanted). Anyway, basically, because it's me, I basically went screw that, we're on a time limit, let's just get it done whatever.

She pulled me out of class after that lab to say that I was “an independent worker who doesn't like working in groups and that she understands that but we are in a group and she also has to learn the content.”

First off, I am a lazy mf. If I can find a way to not do something and do something else... I will do it. I am NOT an independent worker. If you force me to do the work, you either have to be that dumb or literally are lying on me for everything-of which, this chick, was both.

Secondly and more importantly, when I brought up the issue of her basically forcing me to let her redo an entire section, she brought up how, in the last remaining FIVE MINUTES I didn't let her help me.

She took... twenty minutes to redo a part that... I had... already done, wasting twenty minutes... and her excuse was that I also wasted “Like five minutes, I counted”.Oh but she doesn't count how long she takes to redo an entire section. Noooo that's just “Oh really? I didn't count.”

It was the last five minutes, I was stressed and I didn't hear her whiny voice. We didn't finish and I was rushing. Fuck me for ignoring you, where were you when like, we needed to read ahead to do literally anything? You were sulking because boohoo I didn't let you try to redo an entire section for the second time and waste another twenty minutes.

And like, her entire thing is just... “You're a very aggressive person”. I don't know why she keeps on saying that or “You're a very independent person” (which is girlspeak for you're aggressive and pushy and annoying).

Which, ik I'm very like aggressive online, but I was literally called a dog once before. I have been called a dog, a mouse, a white rabbit, and a hamster in terms of personality irl. JUST SAYING. I'M NOT THIS INSANE IRL.

Like, I have never been told to lower my voice because I basically sort of half whisper. The sharpest you'll ever hear me is literally just sarcasm and I'm never sarcastic with people I don't know irl.

Like, to call me aggressive... is insane. Like beyond measure. We had to go to the TA about some our group and he literally said that SHE was the aggressive one.

And like, hear me out, this email thing right? That started because I was like “I'm gong to start...” LIKE I WAS TRYING TO GET HER TO TELL ME WHAT SHE WANTED TO DO.

This girl drops this text saying, and yes, I quote (I think at least), “You do realize that this is a group project right? We're supposed to work together, not you do everything. You're supposed to know this. Tell me when you want to meet up so we can work on it.”

Now, up until now, it has ALWAYS been me coordinating like literally everything, so I just went... no, this time I want to hear what she has to say. I want to know what she wants to do instead of having her make me tell her everything and push everything onto me.

So, I send her an email basically saying that I'm happy to do so, but like ykyk we don't need to meet in person, let's just split the work. I said one line.

Just one line.

Just one line saying that I think we should split the work because it felt like I was doing everything-which, btw, is true, actually, about a good 90% of it at least.

This girl... flips her shit. She sends me this longass email completely ignoring me asking her what she wanted to do, and telling me how shitty I was and how I was aggressive and how she was always trying to work together since the beginning and how it was I who never let her do anything, how I was rude and ignored her questions and how I was like- It was like 1000 words in an email about how bad I was.

And no... she didn't... tell me... what she wanted to do. And no... I... the rudest I've been to this chick was ignoring her questions because I'm not teaching her the entire lab, I barely know tf I'm doing myself.

And we sort of went back and forth like that. And she... didn't tell me what to do... until I was basically like, “ok but what do you want to do”.

By that point, I already went to the TA - because yes, asking this girl to split the work took SATURDAY, SUNDAY, AND MONDAY.

And he was like, I can't split you guys up but then I basically showed him the stuff and he didn't even get to the emails smh, bro saw the SINGLE DISCORD MESSAGE FROM HER and he started to like go like, “yeah you can't work with her.”

because see, if some genius worked with her. it'd be ok.

I am a dumbass and I have to like grind for these labs. I am in no position to nanny this chick.

So he split us.

In that one lab.

I still had her for others.

4. She always talked down to me, poked me-and like let me be clear, tapping someone to getting their attention is what a farmer does and fine, she has the... manners of a dog, but poking me awake when I'm clearly sleeping just to say “Hi”. That. That is malicious. And it wasn't ignorable tiny poke, but this... tapping and if you don't respond, tap more. AND IT WAS TO SAY FUCKING HELLO.

I know this is starting to sound stupid, but I have like a smidge of anxiety and these things drive me insane. Not only that but I'm insanely petty and whereas when I was younger, I would just beat the living shit out of her, now I can't do that because boohoo that's assault and something something criminal record. I say we should bring back legal duels.

And like there is more like the time she blamed me for her misreading shit. or the time she called me a liar for... burning myself. the fact that no matter what we talked about my hobbies were always “weird”, like, there is a lot and a lot of it... is petty.

But I think once or twice, is ok, if your entire personality is being passive aggressive and then turning around and using people, that's just... you're just a bad person ngl. Like, if you're making me sick at the sight of you, or making me cry before labs - I don't think... I'm... the aggressor here. Like for the longest time, the reason why I didn't go to the TA was mostly because bro I don't want to cry in front of this sixty year old man because I know I will and I did eventually because this chick was affecting my grades.

Like, it was like, every single word she said was designed to make you feel uncomfortable.

This is actually the second time, I've talked about her here. But I can't stop thinking about it and her... huge... head. Like, I have to see her next semester and I hope she drops out. Honestly. She once sat next to me and I am not lying, I wanted to actually vomit. Like it was in the back of my throat.

I want to take two tongs and just... squeeze until the parts of her brain start coming out of her eyes.

I... have a very good memory. So stuff like this sticks with me a lot harder than... idk. People will be like, “it's good life exp”-and so is ranting.

It is 2:28 am （￣へ￣）I will probably still be bothered to think about this even though that semester is over. At least until the next annoying thing comes up.