Ts worse than a blackmail, but anyways progress.

Anyways, late night finds but I find myself BEGGING to people, like these mass sorry essays... Oh god ew. I hate myself for that. Looking back at it now, that's icky... I mean yeah i WAS sorry and I wanted to take responsibility, but no... Also I need some self respect too tf. Although it feels nice that looking back at things, I DON'T want to go back to those eras. 2023-24 was smth, I mean with the passing and everything I can't exactly blame myself for reacting such ways and leading to that unfortunate coping mechanism where I lowk lived in a fake world just to be "happy".

Now, I'm happier with my friends like actually special mention to @Pat, @Angelina and @noturious cat, I'd name 6 more but idk if i can lmao but I like them! It's ppl I usually dm with like every 3-5 days sometimes 10+ and I lowk learned to live with oh okay we don't need to chat everyday and we still can be friends. I'd like to be here instead of whatever was in the past cus tbh even though I didn't really like things, I was forcing myself to do so. It was fun but it's in the past and I'd like to leave it there now.

So yah thanks for reading this, ik I make this forum like a diary atp but hey who cares I like doing this + it's been 2 hours rn and one of my yaois is still loading. It's just idk i like taking time of my life to appreciate what I have now instead of the "what-ifs"