what would you do

imagine you were 18+ and depressed with severe social anxiety and js started college. you get a scholarship and earn money every month. obviously, you need to go to all your classes or you’ll have to pay back this scholarship. but unfortunately you didn’t go to some of you exams with no justification. and now they send you an email asking you to justify why you weren’t there at this exam, but you have no justification, because even if you couldn’t go because of your social anxiety, you never went to a therapist, so what paper justifying you can’t go out of your house can you even give ?

and so, they ask you to repay this scholarship, what would you do ? if you go see a social assistant, what would you say to, not lose your new year scholarship, and to not pay back the last year one