Anyone else just don't wanna live past 30 or 40?
It's not in a depressing way, it is more of a hopeless/ bored way. I can't see myself live past certain ages cause life just feels so long. I've got no desire for family or anything really for future, so it just seems so hopeless to live that far. Every year just seems to get worse haha. Idk what's the point i wanna make, i just wish suicide was legalized for people like me, idk, i couldn't really care about living, again not in a depressing way
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It might sound stupid but i have already decided to kill myself once i turn into an old man legit bc i don't see the point in living past 40 yes not in a depressing way tho not sure if I'd be able to succeed so yeah i am w u on this one
Less goo!! Gotta read all them yaois and yuris before dying
I used to think that i would kill myself the day i turned 18 but that didn't happen. And recently I was helping my little cousin with his homework, and as he was writing the date on the top corner he said "i want be alive to see the end of the century, you know to see how writing 2100 as the year in my notebook would look like" i realised that despite everything going on and me wishing for the apocalypse at every minor inconvenience, I too want to live to see the world. Maybe we'd be living under some form of huxleyan distopia, or maybe we'd all be strapped to virtual reality machines to experience our desired world. Maybe climate change will lead to our extinction and mother nature will have her sweet revenge. or maybe the religious fanatics were right all along and the gods will descend from the heavens on the final day of judgment. I really want to witness it all with my own eyes lol. Sorry i went off on a tangent, but the jist of this is that there's still so much left to see for you to wish for an early death
‘Every year just seems to get worse haha’
……. Haha? HAHA? Girl wtf. Like, j mean you say you’re not depressed and then you say that you wish suicide was legal?
Like I a hundred or ten get it. I’ve got no ambitions and I also wished I could’ve gone to Scotland and just went to sleep forever cause what tf is there left for me to do exactly? I used to wish a zombie apocalypse would happen so that I’d have to fight for my life everyday and that it’d give me purpose.
Anyways, long story short just to say that I was in fact diagnosed with depression and I ended up getting a puppy to take care of so I wouldn’t feel like I have nothing to look forward to? Cause I don’t want kids you know? And the feeling of somebody living and depending on me gave me purpose even though I don’t have ambition.
So maybe get checked out by a psychiatrist? Or a guidance counselor if you’re school age.
I'm prob not depressed, i can kinda get through everyday life without having a mental breakdown everyday so that's alright.
Also therapy is a luxury here, and it's said to be useless by those that did take therapy so i don't wanna do that. If shit gets too bad, i might get into therapy but it's probs not so bad rn
Right up with you man. Sometimes I feel like if the world was to just suddenly end I wouldn't really care. I don't live an unhappy live, but I don't feel happy or fulfilled either. I truly wonder if I will ever reach a point in my life when I can confidently say I'm happy. I drag myself along, feeling every day more drained and exhausted that the day before. So if I got to live up to 40 years instead of 80 it would be perfectly fine. Though, I guess while we are still alive we should strive to live a decent life.
Quoting one of my favourite shows (BoJack horseman *I highly recommend it*): life it's a bitch and then you die, but sometimes life it's a bitch then you keep living.
Well, this is the end of my rambling. Hope I helped you feel less alone in this reflection.
Wish you a nice weekend ;)