I fuckinf hate being autistic!!!

I truly fucking hate it, it always feels like something's wrong w me
Why do I have to get frustrated so gast qhen there's a change of plans, I hate crying for nothing, I hate not being able to get social clues, I hate being socialy awkward, I js it
I hate having to over explain myself bc they think I'm trying to start a fight, when in reality im just communicating, I hate getting overwhelmed to fast and not being able to control my emotions sometimes
I just feel so out of place aaaaaallll the time
And I know my sister supporst me and all, but I feel such a burden for her