yearning

man, ive been in love with this girl for AGES (i started liking her in 2018) and just realized my feelings onwards through 2020. I keep looking out for her everytime there's an earthquake since she's hyperventilating all the time and the thing that really sucks there is just how i cant actually come to her because shes so far away from me :)

Ive seen her happy with a guy she liked and only to get broken again because they broke up, she waited for a year for him and i hadnt got an update afterwards, hopefully she's happy now.


She's been my muse since i was a teen and now im 20 years old, my heart never fails to yearn for her more despite the fact that ive been telling myself to move on ever since i told her everything i felt towards her since 2024.

If she ever reads this, i just hope she knows that the only time she'll ever be unloved is when im dead.

And jokes on you i am a woman fuck men seriously.