If you ever feel like you can't get over things right now, slowly with time you will heal cause that's what I went through. I was really at the lowest point of my life before... Very low because of some personal stuff that happened with me. I thought I would never get over it or able to find new people in general but I did. I'm very grateful for my current bf right now, he's everything I ever wanted in a relationship at last. My current friends, they're everything I genuinely wanted ever. I was able to move on after like 1 and half year *cough* well I'm still trying to fully still heal. It's different for everyone, still eventually you realise it doesn't hurt as much as before.
It's like this. The black thing is kinda meant to represent I guess grief or the pain.

The black thing stays the same but with each time, the heart grows bigger slowly until eventually it is bigger than the black thing. Representating that you'll miss it or it hurts but over time, it doesn't hurt anymore. You overcame it and became bigger than it. "I wish" becomes to "that was fun, I like my life now though." where once wishing to go back to the past to now just enjoying life as it is.
Healing... Is a really long process. Lots of coping mechanism plays a part and each of them, is crucial to healing and way of accepting things for abit. If its harmful, you know you soon has to stop. Sometimes talking about it, writing on a journal or talking with friends or drawing it out and all that stuff to release it. Do it. It will help trust me. Over and over again, talking abt it and self reflection and everything or don't.
Still, fell all that emotions and let everything out. You won't be feeling like this forever. Know that you're not alone in all of this.
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that's actually really sweet!!! it's nice to see some positivity being spread in the places you least expect it... I hope you manage to heal beautifully and I wish you and your current bf the best!! also good luck to anyone that may be feeling down rn and is reading this ( ◜‿◝ )♡ remember that you are loved
I wanted to share cause of how much I realised I healed from my past traumas and they no longer hurt as much as before. I was happier and stuff, alot of corny things and I hope everyone gets to heal with whatever they're going through.