This is bad… and long
So.. theres this guy in my class who hates me and I hate him like it’s was BAD. We would yell at each other and genuinely want the worst for each and i call him chopped on a daily basis which isnt to far from the truth but anyway one day we had a test and your girl was prepared!! Until I forgot the most important part of the test and I started freaking out cuz HOW DID I FORGET!? But then as im freaking out he turns around and asked if im ready for the test and I say no cuz I’m honest and then he asks what I don’t remember and I tell him, expecting him to laugh at me but instead he helps me remember and after that he starts weirdly being nice to me like saying good morning asking if I know about up coming tests and just nice as if he didn’t tell me to die 3 days ago but TODAY during math class I caught myself staring at him a little TOO much and I accidentally dropped my pen ( mind you he sits in front of me ) so I ask him if he can get it for me which he does and when he turned around to give it to me we made eye contact and for some reason my heart started beating really fast and later we were working but I needed to sharpen my pen and while I was doing that it seemed like he was looking at me so I got a bit nervous so I looked down at my pen but when I looked up to meet his gaze turns out HE WASNT FUCKING LOOKING AT ME he was actually asleep but I got really sad cuz damn he WASNT looking but when I sat down I thought “ wait why am I sad… Do I have a crush on him!” And I’ve never been the same after today cuz I refuse to have a crush on him I CANT I WONT like I wasn’t joking when I said I thought he looks chopped he really does but maybe he cuz he’s growing taller then me.. but NO I DONT HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM I REFUSE
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Didnt you say he was chopped? JKK its an enemies to lovers girl. Dont rob us of the updates
Well today I caught him starring at me a little TOO much and he asked for a pen so I gave him one but he didn’t even use it so I asked for it back cuz?? And he said “ I like having things from you” so it’s could be enemies to lovers??
the whiplash from a guy acting so bad to you to suddenly being a normal person can throw anyone off, i feel for you.. personally he gives me manipulative vibes but sometimes guys are just THAT stupid that they act like that to someone they are interested in.
I went through a similar thing and it’s easy to see things through those rose(?)-coloured glasses about that one person, so its not wrong to say it’s probably a crush! But I recommend taking time to really think about whether you like them genuinely as a person and then maybe you can start trying to kindle a real friendship to get to know each other (and find those red or green flags!).
when you get to know someone deeply and their personality, then I think you will have much more confidence on whether you are attracted to them or not! I will say though, i hope he doesn’t treat you or other people actually badly and that your love hate rivalry is just some fun between you two
anyway that was a bit long but I hope it can be a little helpful! Do keep me updated hehe (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I had a similar issue with a guy. Since it’s just this one guy and you two are just word sparring, do you think you’re bringing irritation from elsewhere and overlooked something? The way you write is full of fire and I remember being like that once too… I was really touchy. So maybe just try not giving him emotional reactions and see what happens? Keep us updated
Wait im confused what do you mean by “ irritation” ??
I don’t know why I wrote it like that. I’ll eat my words up to the point where I said try not to react to him and see what happens. I think I ended up sounding sympathetic towards him and that’s not what I wanted. Like, it’s nice that he was kind once but if he’s been monstrous until now yet clearly has the capacity to not be foul, then you have every right to be suspicious. What about the people around you two? Are you being singled out? What do his friends do? What started the animosity?
Well no actually know about my MAYBE crush on him but his him and his friends always stand close to where I am so I tried asking about him but they won’t tell me for some reason?? So I try talk to him but he doesn’t answer but he can tugg that out cuz I don’t know anymore
Hmmm... my best advice is to either talk it all the way out in your mirror or journal all your feelings when you can. It helps to get it all out, all the scenarios and maybes and what-ifs. Sometimes I am able to talk myself out of confusion that way bc girl, I get it, we are so capable of romanticizing things even if we know it be bad. We are here, in the place where plots go to hell lol. I recently wrote out a whole short story au of me and this guy that could never work out and it honestly helped lol. I lived the fantasy until I got sick of it. Now I'm free (▰˘◡˘▰)
Thanks cuz I really thought about it and I actually would HATE being together or even involved with him. Reading everyone’s advice made me realise how much I love being single ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
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honestly idk what to say, keep me updated w this situation tho tis fire