guess i was naive

there's big friend groups already, and it's not like i on't socialize, but I'm not in said friend group. i have 2 friends, one of them is an annoying kpop stan who thinks stanning bts is the peak of activism (i used to be like that too sadly ) and the other uses chatgpt to find out things that she could easily google

on top of that, i have males coming up to me because i have accidentally ended up becoming close friends with the most attractive women in our batch, these 2 and 2 other people i earlier performed on stage with, and i guess they wanna befriend me to date them. which like i don't want that.

there's no one queer here, the atmosphere is pretty homophobic, I'm probably the only transmasc. people have come from such sheltered rural lives here that I genuinely get asked "why is your hair that short" and "why do you dress like that", forget them clocking me as transmasc they cannot even comprehend my existence.

i don't wanna be here. I'd rather have ended up in a private med college, atleast the people there wouldn't be so primitive idek. i sound so privileged and annoying complaining about something like this but im tiredddd

i think ironically the only thing going semi good rn for me is living alone and studies.