i hate college

just ranted about fwb situation so now college.
im in the uk so its mandatory. im doing a health and social level 1 course and i hate it. its the only thing i could really pick though because anything else and i dont think i would have shown up at all. i have 3 main teachers, 2 of them are alright but the other one. omg i hate her. i was struggling with anxiety and couldnt make myself go into the lesson and she came out and told me shes withdrawinng me from the course so obviously i was annoyed and went non verbal. because i couldnt speak to her she ended up just shouting at me and sending me home. i told my mum that i was kicked off the course and she phoned the teacher and the teacher said that she never even said that????? it annoyed me so bad because literally why is she lying. she also said i was refusing to talk to her :'(
i have 23 pieces of work missing because i struggle to be in the classroom sometimes, ill catch up eventually tho maybe probably perchance.
so rn im still on the course and im trying to improve my attendance but im skipping all the lessons i have with THAT teacher. i just go to a field and ponder. also i usually have her after lunch. and because i have no friends anymore, i can go to a field at lunch, because i can make my own decisions without thinking about anyone else bc im alone, and then just stay there for 2 hours.
honestly its kinda freeing to be alone. i dont have to keep up with other peoples pace, i dont have to worry about them seeing me eat, i can go where i want. its nice tbf.