So close to crashing out again

Like womp womp I'm a disabled fuck who cares. But theres a limit on what I can and cannot take.
I am clinically diagnosed with tourettes syndrome. Sometimes when in tic attacks I cringe at myself because I sound like some mfs I knew in the past who faked tics for attention and/or just to say slurs. But I take medication for it so its less bad.

I'm in the kitchen at my art studio, sat down on the sofa there because my back is playing me up. This guy walks in. I try to keep FAR away from this guy for two reasons, 1. Hes weird and hit on my sister + just weirdo and 2. He triggers my tourettes.

He starts to do that shit he does where he goes into his weird voice and says shit not only repetitively but in a tone that sets me off. I start looking like my ex boyfriend on our prom night (looking like I'm having a fucking seizure) and he looks at me and starts to talk to me wondering why I am tweaking out.
To point out, everyone KNOWS I have tourettes at the studio. But giving him the benefit of the doubt and just "ok dude go with the tourettes questions"
So he asks. And then he brings up that one south park episode. I know of it, can't watch it thought. Because, bitch ass would get triggered more.
He then starts to fake tics like in the show. And then repeats my ones. I'm already having a tic attack and its a painful thing. I almost start to cry when I say a verbal tic which includes a swear and not very nice words. And another guy who I am usually chill with makes a joke about it. Saying "oh I wish I could say that to my mom" mate, usually I say its ok to joke about it with me. Not when I am almost crying.

Like I can't even say jack shit about it to like anyone irl. Because then I get given a rant on how I need to be kinder and such. I can't rant about it on most forums because the bitches who never had to deal with a disability like that think they know all the shit and tell me what to do when I know I CAN'T fucking do that. So I rant this on the gooner website.

The only pro to this was me laughing manic-ly as I try not to scream and get someone to get me a neck pillow for free because my bitch ass is not paying for it