in love with my guy bsf
so basically, ive spoken about this before. we've been friends for over 5 years now and a couple months ago he asked to be fwb. ive been in love with him the entire time so obviously i said yes, hoping theres a chance that we could be together.
nothing really happened with us , hr would send me videos of him jerking off and i sent him nudes a couple times. he ended up sayig he fell in love with me and i said the same.
on Halloween we kissed and he was also moving my hand to his dick but i just moved it away becayse i didnt know what he wanted me to do? we were in public btw. also i was high during this.
anyway, a few days later he basically said hes in love with this boy, which btw he could never be with because he lives in another country. so he stopped talking to me, like no texting, ni more facetimes, not even talking to me at college. and then after a couple weeks it kinda went back to nnormal. by normal i jyst mean like how normal friends are.
and then the other day he told me that hes been falling in and out of love with people to fast adn that if he ever asks me out on a date i have to say no because he would never like me like that. honestly that really hurt.
BUT THEN a few minutes later he was begging for nudes, so i sent them. i thought maybe he actually did love me but then i remembered hes just using me...
im not sure if i can continue to be his friend anymore. i have no other friends which means id be alone at college but honestly thats not so bad i guess. im not sure if i want to cut him off though because i do really love him and want to be his friend even if we'll never be together. i just dont want to be used by him.
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He's obviously using you and you know that, he never loved you even as a Friend. Friends meant to honest with each other and being mindful, not using for his entertainment urge.
His Actions, words all in all is screaming "I don't care about you or your feeling" that's totally a black flag so never send him any nudes pics anymore to him or anyone.
How could he keep telling you about falling in love with others, even boys, despite knowing very well that you love him. How could he be so insensitive!!
he's not serious about you, save your love and emotions to a more suitable and caring one.
Cut the guy off, he isn't worth your time. I know it's hard to make friends in college but really, it just starts with talking stuff and saying hi to them everyday. There are like thousands of ppl in college, surely one of them would be willing to be friends with you. Don't stay with someone who only wants you for your body, don't put your self-worth on the line just for somebody. They aren't worth it, you deserve much more amazing people in your life.
Honestly I think you should cut him off even if you love him and it hurts he seems like he's only seeing you as someone he can come to whenever he wants sex or nudes
He's telling you with his words and his actions that he will never see you as more than a fuckbuddy. You'll never get over him if you keep sticking around him. And personally, I'd rather be alone than with someone who treats me the way he treated you.