being lesbian

i think i'm lesbian what do i do, is my life over? like ive had thoughts about kissing girls and it doesn't seem like such a bad idea to me at all (i'm leaning towards actually looking forward to something like it too) and i've dated a few guys who were into me but most of the time it just felt like i was forcing myself to talk to them which i didn't enjoy at all

ive thought about things like being married and having to say in a committed relationship which freaked me out but when i thought of all that happening with a girl it actually felt kind of nice

this is gonna sound crazy but listening to chappell roan on repeat has probably contributed to me questioning my sexuality