guilt

It been a year since I broke up with him just because I was a suic!dal, that suck honestly. I still feel guilty because I couldn’t apologise before he left me with a kys paragraphs instead. Mostly my fault for acting mentally ill the whole time, he was struggling too yet I ignored it. The guilt eat me up. I peek at his socmed today and it makes me nauseous I vomitted. I don’t know why, I had nightmares that night. The bitter words he left me that day came to taunt me again, It makes me wished I never get involved with him. I never get to apologise and that taunt me. Remembering him gave me a sense of longing toward him. I feel like I will never escape this guilt and be taunted forever.