Heavily inspired by mitski

First and foremost I'm sorry about my bad english as I'm sleepy when writing this and I suddenly have 3am urge to write a what I feel about mitski and I

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I think they would not cry if I suddenly die, but they would be devastated as they saw I'm no longer suffering because they only love me when I suffer.
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I have good mechanism— I'll suddenly turn sociable as possible, laugh at every joke, treat all my friends with good food, most importantly i give them a letter.

A letter of courage "You can do it! If you fall, I'm here to catch you! "

A letter of affirmation "YAY i love you so much!! "

A poetry that helped everyone, a letters turns into a words where a few sentences will be serves to help a poor soul that got lost.

When I'm suffering I will travel alone, where no one know me, where i feel lik3 an alien trying to learn how to be a human. Talking to strangers as they do not understand how capable I am to destroy a relationship because of my stupidness. Yet when I talk to them they comfort the uneasy mind of mine.


So if I die everyone will not cry as the presence of alien is not special as they are not normal human being, but they would be devastated that I'm no longer suffering because no one will give them attention anymore, where words no longer can be written. and a letter I wish I could get will be not be send.

I really wish they like me when I'm not suffering.