Guys... I'm desperate

I know this is not the right place to be asking this, but reddit moderators are already rejecting my posts, I'm just lost and pretty much gave up...so here goes nothing.

I've been searching high an low for the english translation of the bl novel "I still love you even if you are a man" (the one that has a drama named like love) , the completed first book used to be on wattpad but, idk why, was deleted, maybe someone saved the whole thing before it was taken down, since I fear the original translators are not active anymore, there are a few pieces here and there, but they are missing a big chunk...

If someone has the first book or knows another source, I beg you to pls share it :')

Thanks.