TW How do you want to die

This is a heavy topic so TW
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, maybe alittle too much, despite the fact that death used to scare me when young but now I want to face it I never saw myself living long especially with the path I almost went down, living is hard and intrusive thoughts are scary

But I always saw myself going out with a bang and something bad happening like a horrible chemistry explosion accident or getting stabbed to death by someone, Ik accidental laced fentanyl od was a concern

Do yall think about how you want to die or am I jsut clinically insane why did I write this omfg