let's appreciate being alive twin.

I really love listening to music that makes me feel nostalgic. Songs like "No One Noticed" by The Marías, "About You" by The 1975, "Homesick" by wave to earth, and basically anything by Cigarettes After Sex and "M." by amil and others that have that same deep, emotional feel. Sometimes, I feel so lucky to be alive just to be able to hear these masterpieces. I really appreciate that life has given me something I actually like this much. Before I found this kind of music, I don't think I ever felt the specific emotions I feel now when I put my headphones on. It is like the music understands a part of me that words can’t quite reach, even when it feels like I am yearning for something and it hurts.
When it comes to what I watch, I love anime that focuses on nature and is full of fresh, creative ideas. That is why I am such a huge fan of Studio Ghibli and Hayao Miyazaki. Their movies feel so alive and peaceful, and the animation is just so smooth. The way they render the backgrounds is so good. it is the kind of art you just want to dive into if you ever got the chance. I also enjoyed "Your Name" and "Weathering With You," though I have some mixed feelings about the director. While the visuals are stunning, I sometimes feel like the way the female characters are written could be better.
Besides music and anime, I spend a lot of my time reading manhwa. My absolute favorite thing to do is read at night when everything is quiet and the rest of the world is asleep. There is nothing better than putting on my favorite playlist and getting lost in a story because it is the ultimate combo. I specifically love stories that are totally out of reality, especially isekai mixed with fantasy. There is something so good about seeing a character get transported to a magical new world. It is the perfect way to escape and see things you could never see in real life. Whether it is a hero mastering a unique new power, making friends, or exploring a world full of mysteries, these stories always keep me hooked.
and also eating while watching movies is another favorite combo of mine. All of this is my way of enjoying life and lowering my cortisol levels. I feel lucky to be able to enjoy these things.

let’s just gaslight ourselves into thinking everything is totally fine twin. lets not let our cortisol levels get higher than is it. it’s okay to just pretend for a bit because the world is literally too much right now. everything is going to be alright soon, i promise. we’re just in a rough patch, but we’ve gotten through worse and we’re gonna get through this too. just take a deep breath and let’s just stay in our own little bubble where none of this mess can touch us. we got this twin it’s all gonna work out in the end let's just rest for a while