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had college PG entrance exam yesterday and it went bad. my dad would be disappointed. i feel like im falling behind in life. i have been ignoring texts and calls from my friends as well. i want to do better. i need to stop fucking around and start locking in.   reply

been thinking about how my grandparents live up to their ages today (in their 80s). my maternal grandpa died almost 2 year ago but he's on his mid 80s. im barely in my 20s and i don't think i can do this anymore lmfaooo. also been forcing myself to do housework and shit (cuz i live alone noone gonna do shit for me) and work i did. but then the burn......   reply

Idk mannn just had my maths exams today and totally flunked it. Im sooo tired of ts. I have been suffering from depression. Just put a fake smile on my face and move on. I've been having suicidal thoughts. I used to be an intelligent kid but now i don't really know. I have never failed an exam but now im sure and i'm going to. I don't really like s......   reply

Nothing is up tbh, everything sucks but I keep going.   reply

Cuz you asked Monday my grandfather passed away and I have complicated feelings about it, me and my parents were no contact until we found out he wasn’t doing well he was not exactly a good person but I cried when he died,I thought I would be fine never seeing him again but this hit me kinda hard I guess cuz he was in my life when I was a littl......   1 reply

woke up at 2 am then played for around 3 hours then and i wish i was joking but i spent like 4 hours going through someone comments here and it was from around 2019 and i had so much fun totally wasn’t a waste of time if i say so myself their comments made me add stuff to my list i feel like we like the same stuff cuz all their opinions were spot......   reply

Today was honestly just boring, oil prices are so high that society is literally coming back to online class. Yay covid era, I'm not gonna be able to go to work next few days cus transportation has a strike. So fuck you Trump for making the Middle east war more worse and affect every other countries. US is literally unaffected by this because they ......   reply

My 17 year old dog almost crossed the rainbow bridge at the vet. :,)   reply

Its my bday yesterday and I can't help but feel empty like I'm turning into the damn age where many ppl already had many exes, lovers, friends, or any social connections and I'm just here fucking trying to survive more than to live freely. I been so depressed asf to the point I started isolating again because I don't see any reason to socialize a......   1 reply