Feels a little empty
Soooo… I applied to university, and the result is out today. I just checked the announcement, and I didn't get accepted.
Kinda sad, but it's not as devastating as I thought it would be. I never worry about the result until last minute (literally this morning lol). I don't really want to go to college to begin with, so I guess that's why I'm not so disappointed. But still, kinda hurt my ego ngl. 3 years for nothing; my grades are for nothing, highest score in TKA in my school for nothing, and all those 90+ scores in my rapport for nothing…
I'm not sad because of the rejection, I'm just sad that it feels like all my works are for nothing. I think I'm gonna start tutoring after I graduate, mainly cause I genuinely like studying and just want to cling to that "smart kid" label 'till I move on. Plus I would rather got rejected than go through 4+ years in a major that I don't like, that would be HELL. And I'll be paying for that hell so that's even more terrifying.
My next try will be that same major and I won't care if I fail the second time. It should be that one major or nothing at all.
That's all, just want a quick vent and cry and be done with it. I still have a test tomorrow (＾3＾)♡˖
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Look, those years still meant something and just because you couldn't get accepted at a university doesn't mean ur efforts are nothing. It's just honestly getting inside is mainly luck. Some even resort to "having connections" Iykm so don't be seriously telling yourself that. In the end you have learned and achieved something in life. I guess it's fate since it's a major you didn't even want , maybe life's trying to tell you to choose something that can make you happy like you should.
Don't choose majors because "it'll make a quick buck" But choose it because at least by the time you graduate you'll have a job that you can kinda like and be passionate about. Treat yourself better, you don't deserve to be in a life you don't wanna be in for the rest of YOUR life.
Everything happens for a reason dear. Trust your course is going as it should even if it feels hard or sad right now. Maybe apply to an online college? My friend got a business degree in a year because you can do your classes as fast as you want(which saves ALOT of money) . Believe it was governor's university?
In life you usually get 30 "no" before a single "yes" but that's completely normal
Hi! I just stumbled across ur comment and wanted to give my insight :) Don't expect much from me since I am still in highschool lol but I'll explain myself as best as I can. I should be studying rn... so I'll make this quick.
I'm also not sure about the whole uni/college thing, I am going to go but yk its different for everyone. I'm just going because its best for my personal future opportunities. College isn't for everyone tho, even though you didn't really want to go to college, it's ok to be sad about not getting in. Its ok not to be ok sometimes. I know what you're describing when you feel bad about your wasted potential and all your works are for nothing, I dont know how to explain it myself but I can imagine it feels like shit.
But you're looking at this from an external perspective just because you got rejected (I dont know if I said that right) but you view all of your work to be the stepping stones for getting into college, right? I mean thats just how everyone is taught ofc. Your hardwork is not wasted, it is something that has made you into the person you are today, and it will build you up for the future, no matter if you get into college or not. Instead of viewing your work to be nothing JUST because you didn't get accepted is harsh, everyone has their own path in life, and theres a reason for everything <3.
If you can't get out of that mindset of your works being for nothing, just use that as fuel to get better ofc! Theres always room to become a better version of yourself, academically and emotionally. But don't take this to far ofc, dont cause yourself even more stress. What matters is that you do what makes you happy, enjoying your life to the fullest.
I believe in you! It's your first time living too, we all make mistakes and we are all in this together, you are not alone.
Don't let one rejection invalidate years of work that you've put in or how you see yourself. Good luck on your test!