Miss having money from 2023

Probably mainly due to the fact my guardian didn't have their own child yet and had a high paying job so 40% of their salary went to me. I got to travel to 2 countries cus of it and I remember my time in Korea to visit my ex back then. I visited lezhin building and got a couple of yaoi stuff. It was for like a week. Then US for my guardian's wedding, which I had to attend cus I am a relative soo. Yeah. I want that life backkk but now cus I'm an adult I was 17 back then, I only get 20% now cus he has a child as well and I should rely on my salary from now on