Ranting abt my family
Ok before any of this, I'm old enough to go wherever I'd like on my own and wear whatever I'd want to wear if I just inform my parents about what I'm doing. My mom doesn't let we buy anything she finds even a bit revealing for her (and it's jst a crop top or a v neck) so it pissed me off and I decided to make my own clothes that are my style if she's gonna be so controlling. I bought a plain shirt and designed it and cut up the back into a pattern I liked and I tried so hard to hide the fact I made this from my mom and I actually hid it.
I wore it underneath some random shirt for a hangout and took it off when I went there but one of my friends accidentally sent some of the pictures we took to my mom's number thinking it was mine and she had to call me to ask what was going on like I was fooling around with guys planning to sniff cocaine smh. She yelled at me to throw it in the trash and how something like that isn't even clothing a girl should wear (dude I'm not kidding it was fr an oversized shirt where I cut up the back for a cool spine and ribcage pattern and I even wore an undershirt along with it) and the whole family came to my moms support like I did something illegal and dumb.
My brother (I hate him I can hardly see him as my brother when he said it's my fault I was sa'ed during a different occasion when I tried to open up to my family) just looked at me pitifully talking abt how I can't just be "normal" like everyone else.
Tw: self harm
Even when I did self harm and blood dripped from my arms no one in my family took me seriously they all laughed at me that I was an attention seeker when I was js going through shit
I remember i decided to keep my hair out to school once but idk why my mom was so against it, she pulled my hair and began calling me names and pushed me down onto a chair. I visibly cried and begged her to stop but no one in the family decided to bat an eye to it like what was going on is totally invisible to my dad and brother.
I just wanna go abroad and cut ties with them, each of them just gets pissed at something about me which isn't even something awful or bad and force me to be someone I'm not
None of them are absolutely bad who are just straight up abusers but they hurt me more than anyone else could ever hurt me
Gurllll Are u alright now???? I mean ofcoursee this must be soo hard for youu i can't even imagine this.
But you know you gotta be stronger at times like this. And pls don't try to self harm ever again like that cuz one should know their own worth. U deserve soo much moree and better.
Girl u r worth the whole world. Don't let anyone like anyone ev......
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18 hours
oh dear, i feel you :[
for now, focus on your studies! i won't compare each traumatic experience of mine with yours, but i happen to be in a similar situation as well.
if you're still studying (school/college/uni), focus on getting a side job (like a small business, part-time, internships, tuition etc.) so you can live independently.
if you're a ......
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17 hours
That's still abuse, you are still being hurt emotionally. I'm sorry that's happening to you . What you described counts as neglect and controlling. Which are forms of abuse, you don't deserve to go through this. No one should but please don't harm yourself. Try to give yourself safer ways to release what builds up instead of hurting your body. Thin......
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Did your friend love your hand made clothes?
I think you need to make more, sell them make your own money and show your family. That will shut them up
The self harm and hair.. I’m sorry but your family isn’t normal, there’s blood so they have to care about you. They laughed? It sounds like they bully you.. Did they have a beef with cool gir......
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im so sorry it happened to you, of course this is so bad. it sounds like indian parents and moms(mostly)
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Thank you for even listening to my rant, I've never felt more understood with my friends or anyone else than you strangers I just met lol. I'll take all of your advices into consideration and do my best to leave my house and live independently once I become an adult. Thank you again, your words have given me strength to move forward
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for now, focus on your studies to be able to graduate and move away. once you're an adult you aren't tied to them as much. idk where u live but in most countries you can get legal restraining orders if it gets that bad. I totally relate to your situation tho. For 12 years of my life I wasn't allowed to wear my hair down, and I was controlled heavil......
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