Im a hypocrite while hating on other hypocrites

I don't wanna be some sort of Ayanokoji wannabe or a "dak psychology" believer or something. But I'm really attentive to details about people. It's something I always remember in the back of my mind and replay it over and over again, especially complaints or talks of experience. Like, "That person literally complained to me about how bad people are, but she's just as bad!" and recently, i cut all contacts of the person i was so sure of growing old with [we're not dating, just one sided feelings] I wont get into all of the details, but he sends me stuff that said "idgaf if u wet my shirt w/ ur tears, as long as that you're not suffering alone" and cute stuff like that. and I remember he reposted a video that said something about communicating directly instead of just reposting stuff directed to people. And I recently confronted him about his actions nd all of that, and now he made a ChatGPT apology and ran. When I contacted him a few days later, he acted like HE was doing me a favor by talking back in half-assed replies and saying how he's trying to make himself better nd stuff. I forgot all of the instances where, as the title says, but... I always had a feeling that I wanted to be excluded from things. like people taking punishments except for me yk