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Me and bae broke up (we werent even official)

He gave me a long paragraph on breaking up with me and said that I deserved better and I really believed that it was genuine so afterwards I cried for like a really long time SO i told my other friends abt it after breaking down BUT THEN i heard he was shit talking me?? And that he was really getting close to my friend(she has a gf) despite of me telling how worried that he gets close to my friends??

this all happened today so i genuinely dont know what to feel☠

they be saying that they dont like that person and see them only as siblings and the next minute you break up w them, they immediately move on and like that person on who they call siblings like (he started liking one of my friends and apparently hes friends with)

I've seen so many characters that has been so close and yet so devoted to eachother to the point that you might as well see them ending up with eachother but THEY DIDNT

Ever since there was quarantine because of covid, we had to always wear a face mask. At first i wasnt really much insecure about my looks and thought that it didnt matter but as time passes by which made me have a lot of acnes. People started to point it out and yet even my family most of the time and called me ugly. My classmate also made a joke as we were playing that if I won then I could finally buy skincare products and then everybody just laughed even the teacher which made me even more self conscious about my face and wanted to buy products but I couldnt cause I didnt have money. And so ever since then I always covered my face w a mask and yet not eat with my allowance just so I could buy some things that could help myself look better. I also got a haircut and by that I heard people havin a crush on me. I thought it would make me feel good about myself but it just made me feel worse cause I was still wearing a face mask by then and thought I was just deceiving them. And so on the next year I didnt wanna remove my mask but I made friends along the way and gained confidence about myself and I could also eat sometimes without worrying about my face but I also made myself stand out through events cause I always overdressed myself but of course it js made me even more insecure and throughout those events I didnt even once put away my mask. A boy had a crush on me and ofc knows my face and I accepted his confession but ever since his confession I never ate or yet even put away my mask even though he said my acnes didnt matter and that I still look pretty but he was known for wanting a girlfriend and also had a crush on my friends back then so I cant help make myself believe that he wouldnt get tired of me. So now this next school year I plan to transfer just so I could gain confidence about myself without wearing a mask on but how could I tell my friends and my bf that i transferred on my own and not by forced js bc of my insecurity. I feel guilty about it and worse cause it feels like im betraying them bc of it but I couldnt go there cause everyone else knows me and I was partly a loser unlike my friends.︶︿︶

Ive honestly seen a lot and the plot is just straightup dogshit •-<

Thoughts on this?

Im someone who has acne or yet a lot of acne marks on my chin and yet at cheeks and my skin is sensitive and yet always oily so I was wondering if what kind of makeup should I do?? Shoud I cover it all up? Or just lightweight makeup?? Or shoud I just cover sum certain areas like eyebags and others but not my acnes?? (though im kinda insecure abt it)

I wanna know what kind of makeup is better as someone who has bumps on their face and yet Acne marks and which could also not worsen my face. Though my country is likely hot and I could likely sweat when I go outside but our classroom has ac

P.S im not experienced on makeup

Am i the only one that couldnt open this website for a while?

Everyday I thought of doing sexual behaviours and always felt sexual about myself. I also yet romanticize about myself being raped and also some other stuff but the thought of really doing it or yet just a simple touch of someone the opposite gender just completely disgust me or yet im terrified of doing so. Im also disgusted of myself for having these thoughts and just makes me feel like a horrible person but I cant seem to stop.

Is it cause I was exposed about those stuff when I was really young and I also did sexual stuff w someone as a kid which I thought it was okay to be doing it or am I just really that kind of person.

randomly found out my friend and the person which I dated back then likes eachother