Mudanos legal wife's question page 2 (28)

when I was in highschool, I went to a tuition not far from my house, and there was this guy known for his troublemaker acts sat next to me (he's always late), we don't really talk to each other but that changed when my school lost against his school (we're in a softball team) and I just knew about that fact when I fell on the ground while running to catch the ball and him and his friends (some other guys on my tuition too) were laughing at me on the side, that was embarrassing, sure, but the next day, I had to go to the tuition despite not wanting to see him, so I came early, but he was earlier than me this time (surprisingly), waiting at the door and said "Guess who ended up losing yesterday?"— and yeah u could say that he bothered me a lot since then, one moment that's still fresh on my mind was the time when he followed me to the bathroom (we have a break, ate food, and I was done with mine, he's not done yet but still followed me there), and I was like "what's wrong with you ?", the guy just replied "what's wrong with me ? I didn't do anything though"— I ended up falling in love with bro but my first crush immediately ended when I had to move somewhere with my family

some says it's an entity sitting on top of u but it really isn't, it's just, we can't move or talk at the time, I tried to scream but no voice could be heard, so I will just try to wiggle my toe to break away from it. When I first had it, it does feel kind of scary and shocking, I got multiple episodes of sleep paralysis in one single day, like everytime I closed my eyes, it just happened, and I immediately went to sleep on my brother's room that day

since I was a child, I would sit far from the beach and play with the sand instead of getting into the water, and once, when my uncle walked me near the water and put my legs in it, I climbed on him and cried, my mom took the video lol,
and lizards or any kind of reptiles. I hate it, not because it has done smth bad to me, but when I see them in general, I'd freaked out and my body feels shaky, it might looks like I'm overreacting when people make fun of me and purposely throw or bring a lizards right in front of my face but hell, I can't stop my heart from racing whenever I see one

since I was a child, I would sit far from the beach and play with the sand instead of getting into the water, and once, when my uncle walked me near the water and put my legs in it, I climbed on him and cried, my mom took the video lol,,
and lizards or any kind of reptiles. I hate it, not because it has done smth bad to me, but when I see them in general, I'd freaked out and my body feels shaky, it might looks like I'm overreacting when people make fun of me and purposely throw or bring a lizards right in front of my face but hell, I can't stop my heart from racing whenever I see one

genuinely how do I deal with it pls ? I can't even ask for help or say what's bothering me since I keep avoiding people

if u don't understand the phrase, it means "a moment in ur life that is too good to be true, but then suddenly, you woke up from ur dream (= the lamp looks weird), and none of it is real