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this nigga gonna go work there cus living in the philippines wont give my ass enough money for my 2nd surgery. I only had this enough money from ppl donation to me for being a victim of an abusive relationship

I alr got rid of my boobs and you want this nigga to still wear the girls uniform (its nursing) and i dont give a fuck if you suspend me! ive been through shit and got out of an abusive relationship to NOT tolerate this.

Maybe care less about being 'right' and more about doing what’s actually right. Holding onto that pride won’t make you better.

what if i regret this one day? am i even sure i wanna be a guy? ive always wanted to be a guy. I hated my body but when i look at the mirror i dont recognise who am i. Is this right? i hate this sm

Just vent---
I fee like my bf could've stayed a good person and still be loving if a certain incident didnt happen to me. Im still curious about him. I still love him. Even though he had hurt me so much, part of me still misses those good things about him. I know that "He's made mistakes, he's only a human." can't apply to him but i miss him. It genuinely breaks my heart seeing some people try their best to make things right but they're not met halfway while i wish someone had done that to me. I wish he had treated me better when he noticed i was hurting but instead he chose his paranoia of me cheating. He was so afraid of me abandoning him.

Everything he thought i would be mad at was something i could have just forgiven. Instead of just apologising he was like "i did this for you. Dont abandon me or you will regret it". Our relationship was never at stake but he was fucking paranoid.

ps: stop misgendering me btw im a dude

i want to talk about a serious thing about relationships and mostly about abuse i need to tell someone because he controls my social medias but he doesn't know these manga sites or anime sites have message options. Im going to go crazy i need to let all of this out and i dont want to be some sort of attention seeker here i need someone privately. please.

I wish i could be free from this </3 im finally being able to escape this, he's out for uni right now and i packed my bags and everything to leave. Im worried because of the cctv he would see but thankfully for him its exams week so he wont be able to see.

Its been awhile since i recieved actual genuine care and love from someone, i fell for their determination but now... they immedietly ghosted me and blocked me everywhere. I liked him alooott and i didnt mean to ruin our friendship but i hadnt realised either he had traumas from guys like me. He even deleted his face reveals in our dms and he was so my type but im sooorrry... i shoulve kept my feelings to myself.

I miss our good times so much i cant let it go cus i want to genuinely believe he can be a good person if he had just tried so. If he had just changed and grown. If he had just felt bad about me more.

I don't really feel like living anymore cus I've transitioned and I'm happy but the insults I hear from people around and how fake people are. I have some supporting friends but I've been informed this would affect my studies and when I keep asking why it's because I'm messing up their dress codes when can't I just wear the boys nurse outfit? Why does the nurse fit has to be a tight fitted skirt. It's so fucking uncomfy and some perverts stare at me and sometimes even film me! Specially when i still didn't have breast surgery. I did follow but the way my professors genuinely say "I'm going to regret this" because there has been cases of that people that did so. It makes me think that if I kms everyone would see my pain.

lets take this wuiz to find out
https://uquiz.com/quiz/7egOXU/what-do-you-smell-like

"I feel bad for the innocent people in the country who dont support the genocide" i would feel bad too if they arent enjoying the benefits they get off their country. The land where palestine people are supposed to live. If they actually hate what their country is doing then why have u not a sibgle israeli protesting on their government to stop this shit? all i see is them acting like victims and antagonizing palestine. Saying CHILDREN deserves to die.

that just screams potential abuser

Honestly no matter how shitty my bf became i can't lie at some point... he was a good person genuinely. I know hes shitty rn and have treated me horribly but moving in is fucking hard cus nigga dont tell me "he treared you like shit." bitch i know! thats what hurts the most and hard to accept but at the same time yk He was once a nice hoe and i can't let go of narrative so quickly and easily. The shit we had was still real, all the bond and happiness. Why would i throw that away? honestly i wish i could just say "oh cus hes lied about some shit" but dude committed crimes on me. "Its the present that matters" yeah but like damn i felt sorry seeing him behind bars crying "i didnt know i became a monster" cus he was acting like that out of jealousy and deep obsession towards me. I was loved by a monster. Its hard to move on when u know they actually cared and loved you but wasnt handling shit in the best way. 3 years.

Seriously let it rest I just logged in today to vent about things. I don't care bout it anymore stop bringing it up when I want to talk about transphobia and being sa'ed. "doesn't deserve empathy" just move on and scroll if you don't care. I was told to let it rest and I didn't and in the end I lost a friend. So leave me alone already.

Only pic i have of myself is my highschool graduation pic