evelynn's question (2)

So I have been a straight female my whole life but been questioning my sexual preference since highschool. I think women are attractive and I adore them but don’t really go beyond that. I think I was attracted to some girls at some point but I don't really put myself where id be dating them or anything more. My friend clearly say im bisexual the way i talk about girls but I really doubt myself. I’ve got a crush on a girl but it was just like a girlcrush and i dont hit on her or anything, maybe im not sure cause ive never been in a situationship or flirtatious relationship with a girl so im really unsure if im actually bisexual or not, maybe i just wanna feel something
I’m not looking for advice or anything but if any female wanna talk and flirt or sum lmk

I am turning the age 18 in a few months and I feel so stressed and heavy in my heart. It's hard to comprehend that I am turning a legal adult with more responsibilities upon me especially considering the fact that I am still basically the carefree teenage 15yr girl reading yaoi in her room all day. I haven't made much improvement in my life I can even say that it got worse, not in the sense that I am depressed or anything but my social skills got so much worse, I barely have friends i keep in touch with. Life is moving so fast for me and I don't even have any stable plans for my future, I'm also so average in my studies I'm hopeless in the academic line.
Please feel free to give me an advice as I am so lost in this game of life with no purpose and no direction to follow