
That's Exactly the confusion. He thought he wanted mr. Han but it turns out that the one he really wants is Hwi that's why he's regretting what happened between Mr Han and him now. He actually said something like his Vision becomes blurry, He's head is like spinning and he's kinda high that time so that means his head is not that clear. When you read his POV, he is obviously confused. It's just that he gave in to temptation because of that Garbage's stimulation and fell in the of heat of the moment coz he believed that the one he likes is Mr Han but it eas actually Hwi (Realization after that Seggs

Ah hello, I've re-read ch 40 (The end part) and I think I get your point. Param admitted that he let That Garbage Fudge him and he just wanted to fuck him. I think he was seduced and Stimulated by Mr Han coz If we re-read it Mr Han is really Stimulating him and Param became stupid and fell in to temptation. For me atleast finally Param realize who he really loves and who he really wants to be with. He regretted everything and making up for it. I think we should give him a chanc ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶e
Where was that "clear head" when you were around garbage like mr. Han huh?!