i dont know if this is factual but i think he said that because he was trying to rationalize his feelings in a way so he wouldn't have to acknowledge the obvious reason, which that he liked him.
When you like someone and they leave you, it'll be a disaster. Juha, on the other hand, has even bigger trauma, he was a hostess crossdresser that almost died for having nothing in the end. His way of life now is actually more peaceful than what it used to. If he falls for someone and accepts it, it will destroy what he built up the few years he's being blackmailed by the restaurant owner.
So you are saying juha is denying his feelings under the disguise of liking dooshik's penis!?
Juha didn't cum enough pearls when he was raped by the guys whom boss employed. But he cums enough pearls with dooshik....i thought the sex is enjoyable for juha because he unconsciously likes dooshik but he thinks it's because of dooshiks size of penis... that's kinda shallow ...he is using dooshik like a dildo to extract pearls from himself...will his attitude stay like this till the end???