You shouldn't say sorry, it's important to share your feelings somewhere and if this feels like a safe space where you're comfortable to do that,, then it's perfectly fine. I'm sorry you're having to go through that, I've dealt with the same thing at your age and had to deny myself. I can't say you should follow my path of cutting off your family, because I know it's an incredibly hard thing to do, but it's sometimes necessary if they can't love you in your entirety. It's not love if there are conditions, and that's not a fault of your own. But no matter what, whatever you decide I just want you to know that you will eventually find a place where you belong. There are so many wonderful people who will love you no matter what and who you love. I'm sending lots of love your way and just know you have people rooting for you
I’m just gonna say my story here ignore it if you want, I’m a 14 year old girl and I used to like girls but having a homophobic family and friends was so hard for me, sometimes I had thought to come out to them and just openly say it but I couldn’t, when I hear them talking I just start to hate them more and more, I’m not scared to come out it’s just losing my family will be so hard on me, after a few years until I turned 14 I started to hate everyone, I no longer can be comfortable with my family or my friends and I began hating girls and also guys. I can totally hear my parents say “why aren’t you dating someone?” And I just laugh cause I can’t possibly say that it’s their fault, sorry after reading this made me want to rant to someone