it's a rant (before i go to sleep)

todorosuki April 12, 2021 8:12 pm

i pushed off reading this (this has been in my reading list for days until now) because some of the comments really put me off. i read that the fl was annoying and selfish and other things that i wouldn't normally be able to tolerate while reading so i didn't touch this until now.

but reading it (im still on ch 28), that wasn't the case at all.

i was so mad at the comments that ive read before, calling her selfish and such for treating her child like that. but who can actually blame her for what happened to her?

yes, both of them married out of convenience, or at least that's what the fl thought. her husband seemed to have genuine feelings for her but he sure as well DID NOT conveyed it properly. yeah, sure you like her, you want her, you treasure her, BUT DOES SHE KNOW THAT? nope. she doesn't.

all this time she was doing things for others, none for herself. (this is why i ws so mad at the comments saying she was selfish) she thought she'll finally be happy now that she's married and has a child, but mind you that bearing a child is not a walk in the park. THAT and she experienced a lot of mourning, stress and anxiety which is already too much for a pregnant lady like her. she experienced all of that WITHOUT her husband with her.

i cant even imagine how hard it is to go through THAT kind of experience, thinking you can lean on someone but when you need them they're not there??? not only that, when her husband was gone, she was being treated like an outsider, like a stranger—bet they even treat their guests better than that.

then she bear a child and suddenly she's being told "your body isn't yours anymore" (or something like that) LIKEEE she was just their just to produce an heir and she wasn't needed anymore. who would stay sane after all of that??

and now she has to take care of a child. she's still young herself but has to carry all of that burden with her. she felt like that because she was unstable, she was clearly not doing ok mentally and instead of helping her, she was treated like a crazy woman. literally everyone in that household drove her mad. i wouldn't even be surprised if she was slowly poisoned by a servant inside, thinking she wasn't any good to be the duchess anymore. sigh.

i feel so bad for her.

Responses
    Ners Gelloow April 13, 2021 4:30 am

    Yeah... totally agree with you... plus Im having suspicions with her maid that serves her afternoon tea...

    LOVE April 13, 2021 8:37 am

    you read my mind. I even cried a little bc of her misery

    Minssi April 13, 2021 1:17 pm

    We are at the same boat mate
    ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~

    todorosuki April 13, 2021 4:13 pm
    Yeah... totally agree with you... plus Im having suspicions with her maid that serves her afternoon tea... Ners Gelloow

    her disease in her past life wasn't mentioned, and it seems like she didn't even know what actually killed her. so yeah, she was definitely poisoned slowly.

    lifeless April 14, 2021 8:57 am

    I always cry when she cry, shes a strong women for staying up all of that╥﹏╥

    Lucky Nana April 14, 2021 10:01 am

    A I went through the same thing, I almost didn't read this because of the comments, but after I read it it, wasn't like what was described in the comments.

    abbibbi April 14, 2021 10:59 am

    GO OFFF say it louder for the people in the backk

    CertifiedYesser April 18, 2021 6:43 am

    Yeah :(( she was suffering from PPD but no one knew nor understood what was happening. That's why I was so happy when the baroness said all of that :'))

    Yay April 18, 2021 10:50 am

    I agree!! I was reluctant to read it cause the comments were like 'FL is selfish', i was so mad at people after i read the webtoon. She isn't selfish at all. Her story made me so sad. She had to go through so much and when she needed her husband most, he wasn't there. The vassals continued to ignore her. I am actually mad at her husband. Like dude, you saying "now you're pretending to be a mother" have you ever tried to understand her. It's his own fault that he didn't convey his feelings properly. Why blame the FL. I get she wasn't being a good mother but that's exactly why she came back in time. And there was reason behind her behavior too. She knew her mistakes so was trying her best to be a better mom after she came back. She was so depressed during her pregnancy. I feel so bad for her.

    todorosuki April 18, 2021 12:29 pm
    I agree!! I was reluctant to read it cause the comments were like 'FL is selfish', i was so mad at people after i read the webtoon. She isn't selfish at all. Her story made me so sad. She had to go through so m... Yay

    i really thought she would be like those female leads who acts annoying and selfishly because of the comments, but i read the story description and thought maybe this was different and it was!! i don't like everyone just jumped go a conclusion that she's bad when it fact i can very much empathize with her.

    sechan April 20, 2021 8:18 am

    Ikr, the negative comments makes the story seem trash when it's actually good. I was reluctant to read it at first also but gave it a try. This is actually more real, I mean the emotions and situations are more realistic.