confused

My exact thoughts!

But maybe he thinks a gay relationship is doomed. Based on his reaction when Kawai asked if they could date.

There's also maybe him not wanting to feel lonely like before when they can't meet up. Not meeting a friend is less painful than not meeting a lover.

Ohara is scared of getting hurt so he does not want to get his hopes high but he still can't give up since he wanted to see kawai even tough he was so busy so it's kind of like he does not want to get his feelings returned since he thinks it will way more painful if kawai ditched him then

oh, i guess i see what you are saying... ughh sometimes love makes people strong and confident.. for some reason in yaoi it always makes them scared.... >!<

Obviously because gay relationship is frowned upon people can't be confident in their relationship but more than that I guess Ohara wants some assurance that kawai really feels the same way and won't change his mind