Should you decide to have children, you will be a better mom. Truthfully, one of the fears that I have regarding having kids when you've had toxic parents is that you'll be one yourself, what with the saying that the 'apple doesn't fall far from the tree'. This alone makes me hesitant to even have children, but hopefully, you'll be able to overcome this. Good luck, and hoping for your lifelong happiness!
Thank you, im quite old, and im still hesitant about kids for the sole reason that i might subject them to the same trauma and emotional abuse that my mom put me through. Thank you for your kind words. I hope we both can have a sound state of mind oneday so we can make life changing decisions easily
This chapter hits home for me so much. First of all my mom has always been cold to me and the person that i am today isnt anything like my mom. My mom doesnt have a shred of good quality in her, and all i inherited was her toxic traits. She abused me verbally, physically, mentally. Im married to a lovely man who understands me and lets me cry as well. I live away from mom but when im reminded of what she does or whenever she calls me i feel traumatise, and im obliged to reply her. I hate it. Talking to her everytime sends me in a spirallong sense of trauma, and i feel ashamed to share this with my husband bcz i feel ashamed that i have a mom like this while everyone elses moms have showered them with love and support since their childhood. I cried a lot with hee won. This wont seem anything to people that cant relate, but for people who DO relate, know how painful it is to live and deal with a cold heartless mother.