he has been abu*ed since he was a kid.....sex is a way to cope from the trauma and yes the only thing he thinks he is worth or capable doing,that doesnt mean he cant enjoy it....i think he seeks comfort in Apollo...what manipulation :(....Phi isnt just complicated,he is broken...literally he is screaming for help to Apollo...he says treat me like a lover...do you think he enjoys being a prostitute?...that one sentence means he doesnt have where to go other than Shangri la and he cant lose the only place that accepts him and he still wants love......
Some other comments were saying Phi was gonna manipulate Apollo with the last line “This will be our secret.” But I feel he only said that to reassure Apollo it would be fine? (Since they broke a rule)
I think Phi Is desperate for love but he doesn’t know how to reciprocate feelings without sex (like why he offers blowjobs quite often but he freezes up at the softer intimate moments like Apollo playing with his hair or cuddling him while he sleeps, which shows how rare these moments are for him)
Ugh. I want Phi to be happy but the narrative seems to be heading to Phi’s past being exposed and him not being able to work at Shangri la
Others were breaking rules openly and Apollo saw them ...Plus why would he manipulate him?for what???to do it?I dont think they want to hurt each other, its been kinda obvious they dont want to see each other do things forcefully.....i mean Apollo was reading a book to understand him, i think he wants to help him,comfort him.....Also,i think like you,Phi just watched him panicking and tried to calm him.Phi doesnt know about love,noone showed him,he was used for sex since he was a kid.....i think he likes it how Apollo doesnt see him as a sex tool....and thats why he is drawn to him.....xD this one makes u think lol..... i want Phi to be happy and i dont think that will happen in Shangri la.....
Phi is such a complicated character. Does he actually like sex, or does he continue to be a prostitute because it’s the only thing he knows...? Or does he do it because it’s the only thing that provides him with stability. I imagine killing your pimp/old lover would cause a lot of trauma. Either way, he’s had a really hard life. I don’t think he’d intentionally manipulate Apollo, it’s more of a result of his upbringing and past