Ahhh... reading your comment answered my questions. I've been wondering the whole time even after reading the letter from seme. why he cheated the uke but he still so inlove with him. He is a SEXADDICCT... I seee
Yes he is... And there was this talking that aldoph, still waiting for zhishu although he knew that zhishu is dead.. And won't come back anymore.. He's still waiting for him until he aged and died. (Thought that was just only a theory but that might be the case because of his letter for zhishu)
Though, he is still an asshole
October... It was october when I first read this painful manhua.. I couldn't move on.. The pain I felt after reading this was beyond to get over with.. After 3 months.. I decided to read this again.. It was december.. I couldn't move on so I decided to read this again hoping that it would not be as painful as the first time I read this.. But I was wrong. It's still painful. I know I'm being stupid... I even read the novel version, hoping that the novel had different ending unlike this manhua.. But the novel was more painful.. Then after almost 4 months.. I read this again.. So it is my third time reading this.. But it's still painful.. So painful. How I wish it was dr. Ai who zhishu met first... His first love.. And his forever love.. And not that asshole aldoph.. Though, I'm pitying him.. I know is suffering.. Blaming himself for the time he treated zhishu badly. Ignoring him.. Cheating on him.. Neglecting him.. It was his all fault..if he was only satisfied for what he had befote..if he was not only a sex addict.. If he was not a toptier asshole.. Zhishu might still alive and kicking.. But I guess, there's nothing I can do. Deluding my self for those hopelessness.. I'm gonna come back here.. After several months again