... Thanks now I look like that one black dude crying gif thing

Michael Jordan.

well I wasn't thinking of this one but this also works

There's another meme?

I only know about the Crying Jordan meme and alterations to it.

if this is even a meme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lw3LDjx__5w

Yep: http://knowyourmeme.com/search?context=entries&sort=relevance&q=crying

Seems to be Best Cry Ever: http://knowyourmeme.com/memes/best-cry-ever