i thought it was just me. i didn't go to any profesional but i was dealing with depression like for 4 years. and i cant even remember what happened in my life one month ago. when i try to remember before sleeping it just make feel miserable. i only remember my memory about my dad and his violence behavior. and everyday i just read something or daydreaming to keep my mind busy so i dont have to think about bad things. sorry for telling my story to u. i am just lonely. an also english is not my first language so i am sorry for my mistakes.
(u don't need to answer i don't even why am i writing this.)
No it's okay, you can talk more dearie... I believe it was your brain's mechanism to cope up with your situation. I hope you seek for professional advice and help tho, sometimes not remembering things might lead to another mental mechanism like DID (Dissociative identity disorder) or multiple identity disorder. If you ever need someone talk with you might reach out to me. I will listen to you without prejudice.
you are so kind. thank u so much. but i don't think my family allow me to go to a doctor. your reply made me so happy. i hope u are good to. corona make everthing more harder. take care yourself. i am trying to get better. i dont know if it help but when i feel down or alone i talk to myself. its help me to be calm. sometimes i want to harm myself. or i think if i d!e i can live a better life in my other life. i know its not going to happen :) (i am sorry again for my poor english)
Awe, been there sweetie so I understand. I know seeking out professionals costs a lot but I think there are hotlines for mental organizations which you can call and talk with them for free. I hope you'll find someone who will help you become better. It's hard dealing it with yourself and I'm proud of you. Just being here replying to me shows how brave you are dealing them all by yourself. (virtual hug)
( hug back) thank u for your advices
Am I the only one glad that he forgot his past? I mean, someone who experienced such things since childhood would be happy to think they never had those experiences... At least that is on my case, I guess. Human mind is such a strange and marvelous thing. On my case, I have forgotten most of my childhood memories ever since I started having severe depression. I mean I can remember things here and there but most of them are gone. And everytime I try to regain most of my childhood memory, it only hurts my brain and gives me so much pain.