A yaoi or bl that is painful to read please. Its good when it hurts.

do you mean like frustrating abusive type?? if so, i recommend black lotus

Black lotus

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/raising_a_bat/ sad but good ending

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/10_years_where_i_loved_you_the_most/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/don_t_want_to_see_you_in_the_next_life/

ways of parting

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/the_beautiful_ones/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bokura_wa_nando_mo_koi_o_suru/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/futaribocchi_no_ever_after/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/spring_snow_odongtong/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/1866/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/lonely_to_organdy/

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/my_childhood_friend_was_a_god/

some of them are just oneshots tho if ur aight with it

Anything like...staying in the person they love is painful, unrequited love like that...or taken for granted mcs.....

Thank you everyone...

Yes arigato kamisama

Im reading that :)