all we need is an ordinary kind of happiness.... someone to love ..fight..makeup..cry live...

Haha, too bad i am never gonna get it. ╥﹏╥

Oh no, don't give up yet! Σ(っ°Д °;)っ
You never know what's going to happen next! Don't loose faith!
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aw hun. don't say that..don't give up!! we all deserve happiness...and i am sure you will gain itヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~ .

Thank you! But i think i am going to suicide in a month or two so i dont think it is. (≧∀≦)

Please, don't say things like that... I tried to kill myself two years ago, and I hurt a lot more people than I thought, because I didn't thought about them at all. Passional love is not the only love to live for, things will get better, I mean it. When I was laying in a bed at the hospital seeing the faces of my little brothers, their sadness I couldn't stand it... I do not wish that to anyone.

tell you what..i am suicidal too. my hands are filled with scars from cuts and i fantasize dying many times a day. They say suicide is for cowards..but i say its the opposite. we love ourselves ..our lives..we are miserable because all we think is about how sad and unfair life is to us.. its only when life has beaten and broken us down to our lowest and nothing can make it better that we take the final step. look around you. do you really think that? death should be respected...not toyed with. You have problems i am sure of it..but i am sure its not worth dying for. please give life a second chance. you have got only one life after all.

i agree.. when i confessed to my parents that i was suicidal( my mom discovered my scars) it was like they aged 10 years right in front of my eyes. To see the pain in one's parents eyes is like torture. i vowed never to try anything like that again. i never want to see that much pain in their faces again esp when all they have given me is unconditional love.

First of all my problem is not passional love, thats something i will never get so i gave up on it long ago. My parents doesnt care about me one bit and they dont talk to me except they want to complain about something. I have an older sister and she is the most disgusting person i have known so i am waiting her to leave for university. I dont have any friends because the ones i had left for high school and never typed nor called me because they think i am boring. Right now i am spending my 3 month holiday at home alone on my bed with a phone. I am vegan and i cant stand watching people eat. I have a lot more reasons but i just feel like its gonna take long so i dont wanna bore you more. Thank you for at least reading and trying to help me. (≧∀≦)

Really? Ok, then... My mother died when I was 11 years old, I have to take care of my two little brothers (my 1 year older brother never helped me), my father tried to commit suicide, he didn't talk to us, he ignored me, my grandma (my mother's mom) fell into depression and was trying to replaced my mother with me, because I was a mini version of her. My father remarried 6 months after my mom passed away, my step-mother was good with me at first, but then 1 year or so she got pregnant and started to care only for her child, not my brother nor me, she stop caring about us completely, literally, I was again doing the meals to my brothers, washing mine and their clothes, etc... My father has always being aggressive towards me, since I have memory, and he used to beat me but not as muchas he later did, My stepmother started to complain with my father at everything I did wrong, and It was difficult to study and taking care of my brothers. One day he literally took all the things in my room, even the door, and beat the hell out of me, just because he saw me talking with my friends (that were guys). Before my mother passed the people used to make fun of me because my mother had cancer and my father was fat, they even locked me into the janitor's closet until some hours later someone found out that I was missing. An I can go on, really, I can, but I'm not going to... I just wrote all this, because really? You want to end your life just because of that? You don't have friends? Go out and meet some people! You older sister is annoying? Well, a lot of siblings are really annoying! Your parents just talk to you to complain? Mine never talks to me and just talks to me to beat me and insult me, when I told her what was happening with my stepmother he called me a liar and beat me until I apologize to her for saying that kind of "lies". You can't stand watching people eat meat? Learn to be more tolerant! Do you know how it is to hear sex noises at the age of 11 coming from your father's bedroom when your mother has just passed away a few months ago? I tried to bear that with all my might, I still do. An you don't bore me! I f you think that what you need is to speak with someone I'm all ears, I have met people that has tried to commit suicide just because they failed an exam they had good families, good grades, a good life, but just for an exam they tried to do that. The depression is a serious sickness, my grandma has just lost her sanity because of that, and I'm still struggling with it, If you think you might need help is better to look for it than actually going to the fast way, that is committing suicide.

I am sorry.

it must have been hard to write and relieve those moments. you are a brave person and it's an honour that our paths have crossed even for a little while. You have my respect and well wishes

i thought you had real problems...but forgive me i cannot make out if you are trolling us or if you are suffering mentally. if yes then i suggest seeing a good doctor. they are really helpful. i wish you all the best!!

Thank you... I really get worried when someone says something as "ecmcrlp" did. I didn't even realise all the misspellings that I had writing my last comment, since is a very sensitive topic I was just typing really fast without seeing what I really was typing on my screen. Thank you so much, It was also an honour to me to have crossed paths with you, sharing something in common is kind of a wonderful thing, and I'm so glad that you parents love you, love is something magical, makes the world worth living in... I had the same feeling watching my brothers... Is horrifying but I love them so much, so I keep going for them

Don't worry... The thing is... That if you give up you actually will never be happy, you should think about it with all your might and think if your reasons are real reasons or are just excuses... No one has a perfect life, even for the people whose lives seem perfect. If you need anything, I can "listen" to you, I'm always glad to help