damn, how late it must have been that I spelled piece instead of peace for my feels for akashi's side story, but seriously, if sensei could make a continuation or just more back story for him, it just felt like he was envious of the purity of what shuri had, and what hisato will one day get, it's like my heart feels sooo *cries*
Thanking you so much for sharing this! I too thought the same, at first I was a bit confused but then I started really thinking about it and this is exactly how I feel. Truly, such a beautiful story.
Sorry it's 3 am for me so I can't spell at all I meant to say *Thank you
The way sensei portrayed love in this manga was hauntingly beautiful. The way I am now is a mix of how the uke paints his feelings and how the seme's perspective is in the story. There was this one comment I read that explained the seme's side to this other one who in their opinion felt that the seme didn't really feel the same way as the uke, the reply of this person to that comment was it's because he didn't understand what it was really, so it took him a long time to realize that the uke was what he was searching for. I felt that comment. It's true. He had already given up so he could never see that what he wanted was actually right in front of him all along. Because some search for something their whole lives, using what they are taught or what they see as basis for how it should be, that it causes so much confusion, leading us to this feeling of 'not yet.' When in fact, it's because it is still yet to be understood. And sometimes, what we're looking for is hidden in plain sight but because of the never ending wall the uncertainty has created, we end up thinking maybe, we're never destined to find what we truly desire.
So when shuri (uke) finally admitted that even if hisato's (seme) heart wasn't for him, shuri's heart was his. I think that's when the seme understood. The distance was also the best way to help the seme connect the dots. Since he had already given up before he even met shuri, he never saw it because he had already stopped searching. So the feelings the seme had for shuri, that were growing, was never given the right name or explanation. It just felt like an obligation but was actually so much more.
I had tears when the seme finally realized. I felt so envious of his eyes. They looked so alive, as if he finally found the last piece. And the uke was so at peace, that the anxiety that ate him up every single day could finally rest, and that he could finally feel complete.
I just wished Akashi (the guy with the glasses) was given the chance to finally be at piece. I bawled when his expression showed of a mix of lonely and empty. I wished he could just pass on in piece, together with the one he felt a connection to. But I guess it also shows how it's never a good ride for everyone. That there are stories, whatever they may be, that never goes according to what we hope for.
Uwaaaah, so yeah. This is my half feels for this manga. It was beautifully drawn to. Sensei please take my heart Σ(っ°Д °;)っ