Just venting

I am so sorry you feel that way but hurting yourself is not the way to solve it. I think that talking to someone trusted will help but hurting yourself wont. I am always free to listen if you need to vent but please dont hurt yourself!

If you want to rant to someone or want someone to comfort you, message me bestie. I know what it feel like to be alone and ridicule, I may not understand your pain but you're not alone and I'm here to listen and comfort you.

Trust me, I know what it's like to be under pressure of wanting to make people happy, but, it's at times like these, where you have to question if it's worth it to the point of self harm. It's not like I can stop you or anything, so feel free to vent all you want. Let it out.

Ahaha I understand that feeling guess I could relate to you being in asian house hold wanting you to be perfect and having a sister who doesn't understand you yeah I get it but self-harm is a bad option sure it took all the pain away at first but you start getting addicted to it later on i'm not good at comforting in anyway sort of way but try getting fresh air once in a while and start focusing on your health more and what you want to do don't just coop up in a corner and a good long sleep helps you alot

I came from asian household too, sometimes I just wish that I went to sleep and don't wake up anymore. I just want to disappear from this world.

seriously i feel you they want the best out of but dont give shit in return just do your best to make them happy and they may still be little bitches but its what im doing rn, im gonna go into college dorms lol no way should i stay here

i feel your pain...im also in an asian household. but not as bad as yours. its just the pressure gets to me but I hope you feel better and I also had the same problem as you. i use music to cope but i hope you feel better <3

thank you everyone

Yeah sometimes I have thought like that too like a revenge for pressuring me. Like... Why should i hear their opinion. I just being myself. Either is good or not, it's up to me. About the time I should change myself or not. I know they're right, but i want to experienced it myself. Like.. Iam an adult right now. Why they keep meddling in my life. It just pressured me rather than make me being a person they want me to be. I just don't want to change cuz they say it to me. I want change because i want to. Rather than support me they just make a long way for me to change. Like i don't want to change myself rn it's what they want right, Since they keep pressuring me. But Then, I think again if i waiting for them to stop. Then, i won't change forever. So maybe i should start open myself. I know sometimes their words are hurt. But, if I want to change. Then, their words should be my guide. I should stop thinking like "Iam an adult now. Why i should i hear your opinion. Can you guys just stop it" if i keep blaming them. That looks like i just want an execuse to not change myself. So yeah i rather accept it than blaming other person for my issue. Sometimes our thought make other person like a bad person. Even tho it's not look like that. Well, that's for me tho. I dunno if u like that or no. ╮(￣▽￣)╭

I’m sorry you had to go through that. Asian households are very strict indeed. I hope there’s someone close you trust that you can talk with. Try using the rubber band coping method.

Relatable in a way. I also grew up in an Asian household, I’ve gotten so used to my personal situation in family that I only self harm out of pure eager to see blood. Makes me wonder how blood is in us, etc.
I have stopped self harming, felt too lazy. I do talk back at my parents, only when needed. Asian parents love gossiping, bad Asian parents love humiliating their children, narcissistic parents are the worst. I don’t a parent who won’t try to understand someone else’s feelings and concerns and make everything about themselves.

Now I just focus on my future rather than focusing on their useless negative words. I have a tutoring part time job, I’m happy to be kept busy. Can’t wait to move out once I’m old enough.

thanks