Someone spoil me the novel pls 😭😭😭

SPOLIERS- Zhenya is actually Phish (the guy who the MC thought died in the river) there is no Anastasia it’s fake, Zhenya rapes the MC many times, one time after he was done he dumped the MCs body at a river bank, in the end they do end up with each other but they never say “I love you too each other” the sex scenes start when there in the train which should come up around maybe chapter 20. MC first gets raped when he finds out that’s Zhenya is phish, Zhenya tells the MC if he shakes his ass for him he‘ll let him live (MC was drug with some type of rape drug not by Zhenya forgot the guys name but it’s whose bedroom there fuckin in), but when there done fucking he tells the MC he’s going to die, Zhenya offers to tell the MC any information he wants to know, MC is confused because the CIA sent him a picture of Zhenya, MC realized that the guy who put him on this mission is a dirty agent.Zhenya inserts a drug into him the drug that the MC thought was a Anastasia, after almost fucking the MC to death, there’s a time skip Zhenya dumps his body at a river bank, MC gets found by the guy he was actually supposed to work with, he goes to hospital, doctors tell him any second later and he would had died.Zhenyas brother tells him that the MC is alive and ask him why he didn’t kill him and why he didn’t cut of his finger (his signature move, the ppl he kills he cuts off there fingers) Zhenya said he just didn’t understand why the MC trusted him so much, then didn’t say much after that. Zhenya did not go looking for the MC in the hospital, he expected the MC to return Korea, which the MC did not.Zhenya realized his life his boring with MC and also he doesn’t understand why he is so sexually attracted to MC. Zhenya gets happy when he sees the MC again, MC stayed because he wanted to undercover what was really going on?? This pretty much sums up Volume 1 and half of volume 2 of the novel. ( i copy pasted a comment but yeah this is I've read till now you will be in shocked when you read the first rape scenes and it says it has a happy ending lmao)

omg thanks a lot also damnnn…. I’ve read a lot of messed up shit but this makes me wanna run away zhenya is so hot and also such a bitch hdjzhdsjzhdhsj

GOD DAMN thanks for the explanation i have read fucked up stories but this one is still surprising i would love to see what could possibly happen to make them end up together lmao

Damn

why the fuck do i know zhenia is the real psycho without reading this, i just instantly know it's him, he gonna be obsessed to mc isn't he?

WOOOOOW WTFFF, they always do this in Yaoi's ALWAYS. Always with the toxic ml's.

Not always darling,not always read define the relationship, secopiato I'll recommend others when I remember the name(〜￣△￣)〜

Ofc not always but it is often. No need, I'm in need of GOOOD josei like cute love and strong Fl.

Is the novel still ongoing??

"Almost fucking the MC to death" I had flashbacks of Under Grand Hotel manga, but judging by the many spoilers I think this is worse.