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i wish the manhwa would remind the reader more often that shinje fully plans to die when he confronts almuten with yugeon. he's always wanted to die actually. but as the novel goes on and as he spends more time with yugeon, yugeon is starting to shake that resolve. it's going to ruin everything. and as the chapters keep going, you see shinje change his plans entirely so that yugeon can live and so that the only way shinje can die is by yugeon's hands.
Just wondering where you read the novel from. I'd really like to understand the story more TT
here's a part from the novel during this scene that's super important! it's from shinje's point of view:
Yugeon was making him more unhappy and more miserable at every moment, breaking down everything that made him up one after another. The opposite was also true, of course. Shinje was also steadily and fiercely breaking Yugeon apart.
Shinje never learned how to share emotions normally. Like a plant born deformed and branching out only in abnormal directions. Only murder and suffering were his means. Pushing and forcing Yugeon to his limits, hurting himself in front of Yugeon, gripping his hair in his hand to receive his resentful gaze, only then he finally felt alive. Yugeon was also broken as well. Even before meeting Shinje, it was like that to some extent, and not to mention now.
A poorly made puzzle piece would never fit in with others. However, there were two defective items in one puzzle box by chance, and very accidentally, the defective items fit together. It was a coincidence infinitely close to a miracle. They should have never met each other. There could be no such thing as a normal and happy ending like everyone else for them. If Shinje wanted such a life, he shouldn't have been born in the first place.
...that's why I love him.
Shinje smiled softly. And he graciously accepted the ruin that would throw him into the abyss.