It's not painful though? He expected it to be really bad and painful, but instead he was feeling pleasure and got overwhelmed. The ending lines of the chapter are statements often said about how an orgasm is like feeling total relief for a brief few seconds where your brain isn't swarmed with anxiety. It's definitely not masochism he's not enjoying the pain parts. Though he mentioned at one point not minding if he was spanked I believe he was thinking about how it felt good to be made vulnerable but then feel "safe" (since at least the top gave good aftercare when he was spanked). Sorry if you didn't mean this so seriously, I'm honestly interested in what people think about the unconventional development in his journey through these Saturdays :)
I am sorry if that was how it went.i just skimmed through the chapters to see if it would ever get good but every of them had him either blushing or crying his eyes out.one chapter even had him forget about 10 seconds of the moments he's going through.like some kind of blink of a moment blackout.he always shows regret over choosing this choice of 13 days.i am way too tired to read this rn.i don't know if i look like an inconsiderate person who didn't even read thoroughly but went straight to bitching to you but i've only ever seen him cry at bed and regret.and he's somehow only blushing.that made me screech.i will give this a try again because of you you see it.
That's totally fair :) I think the closer they got to actual sex the more nervousness that the bottom displayed, and his reaction was close to the same PTSD reaction he had at the very start when the tops hair dropped water on him (we now know it seemed to be raining when the bottom was SAd in the past). But I definitely recommend giving it another go, just understand it's definitely a tougher read because of his tears and I'm starting to think the author has a crying fetish like the top does lol I honestly think this won't end bad though, I'm hopeful!
And one thing is that's making my head hurt is i feel like it's gonna be the bottom who's gonna fall in love first while the top is yk only in it for whatever benefits he wants.i'll definitely give it a go thank you so much for understanding me
Is this how a person finds out they are a masochist??? Is he blushing rn?? Over what?? He can't beat the pain when they are doing the deed but he's blushing??