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maybe that's less of a conscious desire, like if he did love him but also resent him at the same time because of everything he had to go through for him. Intellectually, he'd know none of that was his bro's fault but instinctively, he might be looking for some way, any way to get away from that sort of feeling.
Doesn't help that we don't know if the curse explicitly requires that you want to murder someone, or if you just want them to get out of your life/head somehow.

Kinda weird of him to hate his brother this much just because their parents were fucked up in the head to perform a human sacrifice to heal the brother