Helpppp

I've been looking for this bl for a while buf i cant find it. So this manga is based on a novel about the authors life. So like as a gay he struggled to fit in from a very young age and there was a scene like he wished for a toy secretly to santa like a magic wand i forgot but instend he got like robot?? Then he grewup he met his husband. They struggled cuz back then it still isnt legalized in japan to get married to the same sex i remember like the guy working for the marriage registration said that they were sorry because it isn't legal like sincerely and wish the best for them that's all i can remember